I know I haven been posting my blog for very long. I haven been working for the past few days. Back to Good Wood Park Hotel to work as a part timer. AdHoc. Was kind of fun working there. But I really dislikeworking in shopping centre. Shopping tends to have little sales and it boring to sit there and doing nothing. It wasn't my style to sit there and wait for people to come. And so I prefer AdHoc with Wendy. :) So far, things were still alright for me. :D they were really friendly towards me. recently read a book called "Daddy's little secret". Was quite a good book to read, although at times, it repeats the same things, but it just stay in my mind how the step father of hers abuse her. Almost finishing reading the book. Have to find other book to replace this book during working time, if not I will be bored to death.

Finally, I got my iPhone 4s. :D hahaha !

Unable to sleep. Feel really upset. Quarreled with boyfriend in the evening. Okay, yesterday, since it's already past 12am. Boyfriend's words really hurt me a lot inside. At the same time, thinking if am I really too over or what.
I really wish God didn't create a brain for me, so I could forget what had happened just now. Just like a star fish, memory only 2 sec.
Yup, I text with one of my best friend Miegan. And she understand how I feel and she understand how my bf feels. She is one of my friend who been through more than I do. She analyses how I feel and how my boyfriend feels. She told me that she also have this kind of feelings when her boyfriend do this. And she told me she read bible. That really shocked me. I didn't know that after so long we didn't meet up, she became so holy. :O
So she asked me to trust my boyfriend and she also did say, boys will admire other girls looks but we will always be the one which is important to them. It sounds kind of true. But which girl are able to tolerate this kind of things? If you say that it's easy, why will there be so much couple quarrel everyday?
So overall, I just feel that I ain't a good girlfriend at all.
Miegan is really cute. She comfort me by saying "bad girlfriend will burn down her boyfriend house before her boyfriend reached home"
I felt a little happy inside and continue texting her.
Ya, bad girlfriend will burn down her boyfriend house before he reaches home. Alright, I guess I'm the one at fault. Never mind. I'm always in the wrong no matter how hard I tried to be a good girl.
Good luck Dorothy, continue to be a good girl. Never give up.

Intend to bake this in the afternoon which the recipe I got it from www.verybestbaking.com . However, I don't have much ingredients left in the fridge and it going to rain soon, so I'm a little bit lazy to buy the ingredients. :)

Jobs

Today I am going to talk about MY PARENTS!
I believe everybody have an ideal parents in mind. When we were young, we wished that we have parents who could give us all the toys we want. For girls, Barbie dolls. For guys, maybe toy cars? As we grow older, we wished for more allowance for us to spend in school and get the things we wanted. We no longer want them to buy us toys.

For what I think, all parents are the same. Their mind set just wanted us to grow healthily and be a good child. They won’t ask for anything in return.

I felt that I was born in a blessed family, even though I was not born with a silver spoon. Family income were just enough for the 4 of us.

I decided to post this post for my parents because I’m now having my holiday and I stayed at home most of the time and I realise something which I always don’t.

Let’s talk about my father first. To me, he is a fierce guy with a caring heart. When I was young, I used to be scare of him. Maybe I should share with you what I think of my father when I was younger. I used to think that my father dote me more as compared to my brother, so I used to love my father more than my mother. I used to think that my mother have more money than my father. I remember once, when we walk back home from my grandmother’s house and passed by a “Pasa malam” and he asked me wanted to eat anything. So I wanted candy floss (I think most of the children at that age will wanted to get that in “pasa malam”). The moment my father took out the money from his pocket and pay for the candy floss, he looks like a poor man who wanted to satisfy his little daughter.

But as I grow up, sometimes I felt that my father is not as understand as compared to my mother. I usually quarrel with my father and I find it hard to communicate with him. For example yesterday, I reached home about 10pm and he asked me if I wanted to eat as there was still a little rice left in the rice cooker. I replied him in a manner way saying I don’t want to eat. Reason is that if I eat, I have to eat it with curry and it’s already very late. I don’t wish to put on weight, so I cooked Maggie (I know Maggie will also cause me to gain weight. But if I eat curry, it’s more fattening right?)

So he sigh and whine about me not eating the rice instead of cooking Maggie. But, I understand. So I just kept quiet and don’t wish to talk back.

Seriously, my father is a good father. He always wake up early in the morning when the alarm goes off at around 6am. J

Now talk about my mother. Like what I said, I used to think that my mother have more money than my father when I was young. When I grow older, I realise that life as a housewife is not as easy as ABC. My mother have to give me and my brother our allowance and also paying for all the monthly bills. She have to worried about is there enough money for the whole month. Sometimes, when she saw clothes that she likes, she will not buy it as she felt that the money she spent on this clothes cost a day groceries money. Sometimes, when I see this, I really wish I have money to buy her that shirt.

Overall, I really wish that my parents are in good health and I really wanted to work hard and earn more money to give them a good life. I know they won’t ask anything in return, but I will want to give them whatever I could next time in future.

Recently have been feeling insecure. But I got nobody to turn to, to hear what I want to say.What should I do now? I'm really lost. ): Typing it in a blog, people will sees it. This matter is more to my personal life and I just want a close and best friend to hear what I want to say. But who should I turn to?

Here are some photos of yesterday outing with Dickson and Ashley. :)

Currently just finished making up. Going to go out soon. Meeting Dickson and Ashley. We are going out to town ! Jealous please ! :) hahah ! alright, will post when I reached home today ! :)

Okay. I'm back posting my blog again.