Unable to sleep. Feel really upset. Quarreled with boyfriend in the evening. Okay, yesterday, since it's already past 12am. Boyfriend's words really hurt me a lot inside. At the same time, thinking if am I really too over or what.
I really wish God didn't create a brain for me, so I could forget what had happened just now. Just like a star fish, memory only 2 sec.
Yup, I text with one of my best friend Miegan. And she understand how I feel and she understand how my bf feels. She is one of my friend who been through more than I do. She analyses how I feel and how my boyfriend feels. She told me that she also have this kind of feelings when her boyfriend do this. And she told me she read bible. That really shocked me. I didn't know that after so long we didn't meet up, she became so holy. :O
So she asked me to trust my boyfriend and she also did say, boys will admire other girls looks but we will always be the one which is important to them. It sounds kind of true. But which girl are able to tolerate this kind of things? If you say that it's easy, why will there be so much couple quarrel everyday?
So overall, I just feel that I ain't a good girlfriend at all.
Miegan is really cute. She comfort me by saying "bad girlfriend will burn down her boyfriend house before her boyfriend reached home"
I felt a little happy inside and continue texting her.
Ya, bad girlfriend will burn down her boyfriend house before he reaches home. Alright, I guess I'm the one at fault. Never mind. I'm always in the wrong no matter how hard I tried to be a good girl.
Good luck Dorothy, continue to be a good girl. Never give up.