Went to celebrate my birthday in advance with my friends and HUBBY. :) went to sentosa. It was quite fun. Enjoy ourself there. I will let the photo tell you the story. :)

Really feeling very upset now. Parents been quarrelling for days. Currently they were outside in the living room quarrelling and I'm in the room thinking what goes wrong between them?
I really got no idea what the hell is my parents doing now a day. Father keep all CHINA, mother keep get drunk and hurt herself. Me? Giving myself stress and trying hard to study. Sigh. I really don't know what can I do now. Anyone can give me advice? :(

Didn't went to school day. Fall sick. Guess it's because of the overnight at Marina Bay, The Float. Well, have to stay home for today and hopefully tomorrow I will get well soon. Got lots of things to catch up with. Was doing my immunology notes when suddenly I found out there is a number of things I was unable to understand. Guess I have to write an e-mail to the facilitator soon. So far lesson was good. Most of the modules are related to last semester modules. Guess have to work extra hard for this semester already.
Anyway, yesterday also didn't have the time to rest well. Parents were quarrelling over some family matters over and over again and things are getting worst each day. We can't even help much. Just have to act that we don't know a thing and move on in our life. Feeling really helpless. Got no one to help me up. Really need a piece of advice for now. It really affect my mood and really don't know if I'm doing the right thing not to care what they quarrelling about. Even we tried to help a bit, one may not acknowledge that they are wrong and this is what I call stubborn. Sigh.
My 20 years-old birthday is coming and I really hope that my family can live in peace and not like now. Sometime, there isn't much motivation for me to continue studying when they are so stubborn and making me feel like going out to work and support myself when I have the money. Living in this family isn't that enjoying any more. It's like everyday we will be quarrelling over small matters and don't talk for a few days. Never mind, every family have different matters to be worry about. Lets pray that my family won't end up like some disaster.

Came back from Marina Bay this morning. :) took some photos yesterday when we were at the event. :) was quite a lovely night with my poly friends at marina bay,the float. :)
We went to mr curry to have out Donna before the event start. :) we also went to some places which the tourist always go like the merlion near the esplanade. Report at the float and we were asked to come back at 2.30. So we went to take a walk at the double helix bridge. We are like having fun doing those A T C G base pairing. Went walking around at the shopping centre there which already closed. Just walk around and take picture like a tourist. hahah..
Report back at 2.30am and was asked to sit and have some rest till the runners come and give us their bags. So we had breakfast at 3.30am.
All of us were really tired. All we could do is sit there and close our eyes. By 4.30 the runners started to come in and pass us their bags. We had to stick the number on their bags. I guess throughout the whole event, me and Jedidiah slack the most.
So I guess that's it for today. I'm really tired. Should get some sleep now. Theres school tmr. :)

Currently at my boyfriend's house. Will be leaving at about an hour later. Meeting Ting Jun at CCK MRT station at 7pm and also will be meeting Jedidiah at Clementi. we will be heading down to city hall to meet Sarah, Serene and Jervis. 6 of us will be going to ton outside at Marina Bay, The Float tonight. Feeling kind of excited now. :D We will be helping up at the RUN350. Guess we will be taking photos today as we are going to have dinner together and stuffs. hopefully will be a memorable day with them. :D
First time ton outside with my Poly friends. Shall post my blog asap when I reached home tomorrow. :D

Find me in this photo.

HAPPY 3 years 3 months together! ❤
Didn't really went out to celebrate our monthsary this month as we are lag of money. :P so hubby came to my house and we just went to macdonald to have our dinner. :) spent the time with him after school was indeed good. I love you HUBBY. Thanks for everything which you had given me. I appreciate it a lot. :)

Today, there is RJ and quiz for me to do. Yes! School reopen and everything have to be like rushing and all. Today must class was still Okays. True colours haven come out only. :) hahah.. So I was a very good girl on class. Do all my work and make sure
My teams together. :)
Guess this is the only thing a older student should be doing. Ha!
Talking about old, I'm turning 20 soon. Gosh. Old enough to really think about my future already. Yes! Been thinking a lot of stuffs in my head recently.
Alright, I will start of with going overseas with my boyfriend this coming sept. and really have to make sure that I save up money for it. $400 air plane tickets. :O kinda expensive. But I seriously haven taken a flight before! :( so I'm going to take it soon!
Shall stop my post here. Sleeping soon. got to wake up early tmr. :)

I have failed my driving practical test. Feeling upset over the demerit points. In order to pass, need get less than 20 demerit points. And guess how much I get? I got got 48 demerit points on the face! Arghs.
Felt so lost sitting in the room and wait for the TESTER to hand me the results. I know I'm going to fail, but I didn't know that I would failed till so hopeless. 48 demerit points. You think who still dare to let me drive them around even I passed the test. :(
When the TESTER explain why and when I had made my mistakes, I barely hear what he was saying. His words went into my ears and the only thing I could hear is the "You have failed your TP. Please try again later."
Disheartened. After the TESTER sign the paper, I leave the room in despair.

Never mind, think I really shall try again next time. Parking and all was alright. But when I drive on the road, the TESTER find all the small mistake to fail me. Think the TESTER is trying to be a BITCH. I don't wanted to be so mean. But this is the only way to make me feel better. Telling myself that he's being a bitch and at the same time accept the fact that I have made those mistakes. No more licence before my 20 years old birthday. :(

No worries, I will be a happy girl again real soon. :) Tomorrow will be the first day of second year in poly for me. Good news is that my days won't be boring anymore. Bad news is that I will be having new classmates and also my classrooms are at W6, which is really far from the entrance of my school.
Guess just treat it as exercising. I still could go school with my year 1 semester 1 best friends.

Mentioning about them, I will be going to ton outside with them this coming Saturday, 11:45PM till Sunday 12:00PM. We will be helping up for the RUN 350. Guess will be fun. This is the first time I'm going to to outside with my poly friends. Like a cool right? I also think so. :)

Alright, I got to go prepare things for my lessons tomorrow. All those notebooks for notes and also colourful pens for my notes. :) looking forward to next semester and will aim for a increase in GPA. :)

I can't get to sleep, now lying on my bed posting my blog by using my iPhone. Guess all of you are sleeping soundly while I still using my iPhone to post my blog. Anyway, I doubt people are still reading my blog. I have a boring blog. :O usually I post whatever I have done on my boring day.
I will try to make it "not so boring" okay? Tomorrow I will be taking some photos. I will upload to my blog here Okays? :)

Anyway, if you wanna learn some easy cooking to fill your tummy, I can post some recipe I always used to cook for my boyfriend once in a blue moon. :D

Because if we cook frequently for them, they just take things for granted. Cook everyday means we are like their mum?? Legit?
Alright, never mind, I will post what I cook tomorrow . :)

Anyway, want to hear my recent thoughts? About a week ago, I have been secretly letting a few drops of my tears roll down my cheeks when I'm lying on my bed. There's way too much things for me to think about it.

Firstly, when will my parents leave me and my brother alone in this world and go to heaven? I'm not wishing they will be dead soon. It just that I don't like the feeling of losing someone dearly to me. Who can I turn to when I need a listening ear? :(

Second things which made me worried is the coming future. I'm not prepare to face everything. Things like plans, marriage, work etc.
Am I the only one who keep worried about this stuffs or there are people out there feeling the same way as me at this age? I'm not prepared. :(
How am I going to settle down? Like what? Get married and pregnant, give birth to all my kids and stay at home? Although I have planned to give birth to only 2 kids, but at what age am I going to carry my first baby? Too early, no cash, too late by the time when I'm 50 years old, my child haven 20?! Sigh.

Shit really just happen in life.
Anyway, there's thin bothering me which I don't really like to share.

"It's not easy to be together. We just have to cherish everything before it too late for anything."

Tmr I going to rebond my hair. :) happy! Finally I'm going to rebond it after 1 year of not rebonding it. Hopefully my hair won't damage like some dry grasses. Anyway, im going to make sure my hair grow as long as possible. In love with my hair so much! ❤ alright, tmr I shall go for driving, after that go rebond my hair. Going down to Goodwood park hotel take my pay too. Hopefully is a great big sum of money. Think I won't be going to spent my hard earn money. Will be opening a UOB account soon. Saving it for my future. Going to make sure I have a lot of money. Not going to buy any nice clothes. Aww.. That sound so sad right? But, it's for my future. Maybe next time I will need a big sum of money for my children or maybe I will be needing those money for mu studies? Upgrade myself. :O hahah..
Okays, school going to reopen soon. But I think I will be a lonely girl soon. HUBBY still having his attachment and I will have to go back alone. Never mind. I guess There will always be people going home with me. Never mind. I got my phone and a earpiece. Nobody accompany me home, I have my device. :) got to turn I soon. If not tmr will be a very tough driving day for me. :) will post my rebond hair soon! ;P

Finally, got the time to post my blog.
Haven been busy working for money during my holiday. It going to end soon. But I guess I manage to earn some money and shall open a new bank account to place the money I earn in it for my future and shall not touch it. Turning 20 soon. And should have some savings for future and not keep wasting it. Anyway, I guess I going to save money to go overseas soon. Really wish I could at least take a plane when I reached 21 years old. I really didn't took a plane before.
Hmm.. Oh ya, I got my result few days ago and my gpa drop by 0.2. Guess I have to work really hard for next semester. Hopefully I will increase my gpa to 3.0 by year 2, 2nd semester. There's a lot of up coming things in my life. Traffic police test on the 16 April. Just one day before my school reopen. Too bad I don't have a car. If I have a car, I will drive to school he next morning when I get my licence. 😄
Dream on! LOLOLOLOLS