First of all, I want to say a belated HAPPY 4YEARS 2 MONTHS together with my boyfriend.

We been through all the ups and downs and all the love and concern that he showered me priceless and really lovely. I also want to use this chance to thanks my boyfriend for trying to be there when I'm troubled and also depressed. This boyfriend of mine always does not afraid of danger to be by my side. I love him for being really caring and all the things that he did for me. Thank you so so much.

Recently I have post so much things about family matters, marriage and all the planing for future. However, things which I doubt really made me have sleepless night which is why I always post my blog at night. Today, my parents quarreled again. What they are quarreling about is the same old thing. This really made me felt numb inside when I talk about the topic family. Family suppose to be "father and mother I love you" but what is a family to me now is "please stop quarreling, be kind and love one another". My father said something which hurted my mother so badly. If I were my mother, I would be really sad too.

I don't understand why there must be "divorce" in this world. Like if they decided to be together, they should love and be with each other for the rest of their life. What is the purpose of spending the sum of money to invite your family and friends to let them know that you are married and after a few decade of years later, spend a sum of money to divorce and start selling house and splitting up the money? And if they have kids,  the kids will also suffered with them. For me, and as a child of theirs', it isn't proud to tell people that "I have family problems and I think soon my parents is getting a divorce." It's not easy mentally and it also will somehow affect me physically.

And why there is always reasons for them to file a divorce?

Isn't marriage supposed to be loving and caring for the rest of their life?

There are some questions which I really really don't understand why:

-Why get divorce when you decided to get married in the first place?

-Does the parents feel guilty for unable to give their child a proper family when they decided to file a divorce?

-Are they able to get their happiness and freedom once they divorce?

-Why the percentage of people filing divorce is so high?

-Will their regret of they file a divorce?

-Does lawyer ask them question on why they want to file a divorce and of the reason is nonsense will the divorce be approved?

ALL THE QUESTIONS ABOVE IS SOMETHING WHICH I REALLY WANT AN ANSWER.

Maybe I still don't understand why there is the presence of "divorce", but I really doesn't want my parents to divorce. I don't know when or will they divorce. But if they keep quarrel at this rate, I think one of them will file a divorce and end this.

It's really too much for me to even explain to a person who ask me what happened to your family.

I love children and I really doesn't love seeing them being hurted and feel unlove by parents. For myself, I promise myself to be a good mother when I have my own children and will try not to quarrel with my husband. So that my children will have a proper family.

Ending my post with a photo of my nails which I done today afternoon. It's a bit failed, but I think still presentable. :)

LI YAN ❤ LI GUANG
Always the one I teasure.

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