School had ended and there is nothing much for me to do at home. Everyday it's like a cycle. Wake up in the morning, wash up, eat breakfast and take my vitamin. Crochet for BABY CLARA had become part of the things which I do everyday. Everyday I would count all the stitches which I crocheted and she would accompany me by kicking non stop. I would tell her that mummy is making her cute outfit for her to wear it when she is out.

I had already crochet these;

And currently I'm doing a jacket for her.

Still working on it and hopefully it will turns out pretty. 

Recently, I had the fear that is bothering me. Now I had the thoughts of the scene of delivering baby. Maybe a science student would have this fear though it's my first pregancy. Like you know that there will be episiotomy to aid in child birth, but you may not know how pain it will be when it cut you. A lot of people telling me that it's not painful when they cut it, the contraction is more painful and you would not know they had already cutted it. But still, it's my first time giving birth to baby and I really can't imagine the day will be arriving soon. I know it will be tough, but for the sake of everything, I would stay strong.

I know my dearly husband will be by my side supporting me and will always be my pillar of strength. Just wondering when the day which I am going to delivery our baby Clara, how will he react to it.

Still remember that day when I had a really bad stomache and he just watch me helplessly in pain and keep asking me if I want to see a doctor. That was just a few months back during Chinese New Year. I wonder when he is in the delivery room with me watching me in pain how would he be reacting to it. I guess he would be like very scare and watch me helplessly, using his hand brushing my hair telling me everything going to be okay and kissing my forehead and after Baby Clara is out, he would be smilling and carrying baby Clara with the face like "OMG! this is baby Clara. My precious daughter."

Haha.. My imagination. Good.

I can tell he is looking forward to see baby Clara. Every weekend he would place his head on my tummy and say "BABY~" then feel if she moves or not. 

My husband is really very cute and I'm sure baby Clara would be cute too. Both of them is going to be my precious gems.

 

In just less than 2 months, she would be out. I really hope that everything would be fine and it won't be as horrible as I though it is going to be.

May God bless my little girl and protect her. Guide her in her life when she is out and lead her. Amen.